2020, Ready or not?

HAPPY 2020!!!!!

Three years already past so fast and i can't imagine i still breath and laugh every single day without him. Lots thing happen in these past three years. New job, new phone, new clothes but not new boyfriend or not even a new guy come to my life.

Long story short, He (my first love, one and only name that always come from my mouth in every situation of my life - yeah i know, i'm sucks!) is married! Am i happy for him? Honestly, NOT! How can i say that i'm happy for him, while he married other women? well, but his life come pretty well. He had a child now. I hope his life always full of blessing and happiness, even i'm not happy for him. Hahaha

The another man, the one that look the same - never laugh, never smile, never lead, never do normal things - yep, the man that made me start this blog. He is fine. I don't know anything about his life anymore and i'm grateful for that. Well, sometime... only sometime, i think about him. I think what will gonna happen if we still close to each other? Is he will ask me to be his...? nah.. i don't want to write it down here. Such a cliche, i know the answer is no. Why bother tho'? So my love life is empty now. Ah, i tried to join some dating apps but never work well. I wonder, is there still a nice and normal guy in this world? A real gentlemen, a man who do everything to pursue the girl he like or it only exist in Korean drama?

So, in this 2020, life is hard. There a virus name Covid-19, yeah the name is so last year but the effect is real. Because of this virus, every people need to stay at home or work from home or school from home. While me, as an assistant teacher it's mean i only stay and do nothing at home. It almost make me sick and miss the outside world. Can you imagine i already stuck in the house for two months??? I miss my students, i miss my job, cutting, creating, pasting, coloring, do everything with the children.

Thanks to this virus and my boredom, i check again this blog and find myself laugh out loud when i read all this silliness i wrote. So, i will write more often now. I will write everything that i like during this pandemic motto #stayathome. I will show you the new me! Bye my first love and bye my silliness. Please never come again to my life and soon, bye covid-19. I pray you never come back!